If there’s no wound on the hand,
that hand can hold poison.
Poison won’t penetrate
where there’s no wound.
There’s no evil
for those who don’t do it.

-Dhammapada, 9, translated by Thanissaro Bhikkhu

It didn’t go well.
It didn’t go badly either.
It’s all in the perspective.

I cried.  His attorney is an ass.
Someday this will all be over.
Right now I have to work… gotta pay the bills.

I took the high road.
…and he took the low road
and I’ll get to Scotland a’fore ye
where me and my true love shall never meet again
on the bonny, bonny shores of Loch Lomand.

if you want to be on my protected list, just drop me a note in my guestbook.   those who are involved in a court action with me need not apply.  what you didn’t pry out of the kids, for your declaration, you got straight off my xanga.  get a life, you evil-projecting, sorry sack of shit.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FORMERPRINCIPESA!!

we went to the park… funnel cakes were consumed, stares were received.

what birthday is complete without a movie with the girls??
RUN, NOW, GO see 13 going on 30.  We laughed out loud, and I don’t know about the other two as I was too embarrassed to look, but I cried copious tears.  because we are young, no one can tell us we’re wrong… love is a battlefield.

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in other news:  I go to court tomorrow, and can I just say…  I’m feeling joy a’plenty.  it’s weird, but lately, well, I think I’ve been falling in love with myself all over again.  that’s leo for ya.  !!!

slung-lo


i was slung-lo and
so gung-ho
for anything to get me to start
i had my rock
i had my roll
but i couldn’t find my spark

a flip of the hi-fi
a glimpse of the good life
and the clouds began to fade
i’m turning this B-side
around to a de-light
blue skies are here to stay


“she was so down, look at her now
she’s never been so high!
everyone knows, give it some time
the clouds’ll clear the sky!”


light the radio
til it explodes
i’m dancin’ til i drop
one small step
first right then left
i’m never gonna stop


“she was so down, look at her now
she’s dancin’ til she drops!
everyone knows, give it some time
you’ll find what you have lost!”

it is my style to take awhile
to put the feeling down to page
i get around to making sound
when the fancy meets the phrase!

“she was so down, look at her now
she’s never been so high!
everyone knows, give it some time
the clouds’ll clear the sky!”


i’m gonna burst
right out of this world
and i won’t do it alone
a kick to the heart
a lift for the charts
one listen and we’ll be gone
and then who cares?
we’re debonair
and we’re dancin’ our way back home


“she was so down, look at her now
she’s never been so high!
everyone knows, give it some time
the clouds’ll clear the sky!”


© 2003 Erin McKeown

while I’m up emailing declaration rebuttals to my attorney…

may I just say, my husband (in name) is a total lunatic.

AND if you wanna know how done I am?  I just threw out the vacuum sealed long gone bad salmon filet.  Took it to the BIG can.

I’m famous for my fish vengeance… matched only by a certain yahoo’s dead duck vengeance.  eeeeeeee, that still gives me the willies.

Gurleegurl, I love you baby… I’m so sorry I missed your call.  I was on the other line with my attorney.  YOU CAN DO IT!!

Some things in life are bad,

They can really make you mad,

Other things just make you swear and curse,

When you’re chewing your life’s gristle

Don’t grumble, give a whistle,

And this’ll help things turn out for the best,

And…..

Always look on the bright side of life.

[whistling]

Always look on the light side of life.

[whistling]

If life seems jolly rotten,

There’s something you’ve forgotten,

And that’s to laugh and smile and dance and sing.

When you’re feeling in the dumps,

Don’t be silly chumps.

Just purse your lips and whistle. That’s the thing.

And…

Always look on the bright side of life.

[whistling]

Always look on the right side of life,

[whistling]

For life is quite absurd

And death’s the final word.

You must always face the curtain with a bow.

Forget about your sin.

Give the audience a grin.

Enjoy it. It’s your last chance, anyhow.

So,…

Always look on the bright side of death,

[whistling]

Just before you draw your terminal breath.

[whistling]

Life’s a piece of shit,

When you look at it.

Life’s a laugh and death’s a joke. It’s true.

You’ll see it’s all a show.

Keep ‘em laughing as you go.

Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And…

Always look on the bright side of life.

[whistling]

Always look on the right side of life.

[whistling]

Always look on the bright side of life!

[whistling]

Always look on the bright side of life!

[whistling]

Always look on the bright side of life!

[whistling]

Always look on the bright side of life!

[whistling]

Always look on the bright side of life!

[whistling]

Always look on the bright side of life!

[whistling]

Always look on the bright side of life!

[whistling]

Always look on the bright side of life!

[whistling]

…Eric Idle

the soontobefex pulled some various other crap this week.
pish.  he’d have to ratchet it on up to another level of crazy in order to rattle me now.  touch wood.  I just called the attorney and told her.  done.

I release it. 

we are where we should be, doing what we should be doing…
otherwise we’d be somewhere else, doing something else.

haircolor and reike tomorrow.
ella and tea today.

we went to the drive-in movies last night, the kids and I.  we also took dylan’s friend sean.  it was the first time I’d seen him in three and a half years.  nice.  it was a sweet time.  we loaded up on pillows and quilts, even took the car-blanket from sean’s dad’s car.  yummy.  there’s nothing like cuggling in the car, watching a movie that’s blaring through your radio. 

 I was a little worried about the car starting afterward.  they no longer use those post speakers.  I kept remembering the last time I was at the vue-dale.  it was raining and we had to use the windshield wipers on the vacuum cleaner (white escort wagon).  when it came time to leave the car wouldn’t start.  oh yeah.  but it was fine this time.  I think we’ll go again the next weekend I have the kids.

a while ago I said I wouldn’t lose weight to get a guy.
I know some disagree, but truly, I wouldn’t want anyone
who doesn’t want me fat or thin.
unless it’s Alan_Rickman (click that)
but that’s another pitch of kittens entirely…

…link from ignatzmi

I think there was some confusion about the alice in wonderland reference.  you need a reference point.  like the red queen says:  always jam tomorrow, never jam today.  or was that the white queen?

VM has been saying all along, jedi wave it…  not just about my stupid fex, but about everything I’ve freaked about about in the past few years.  she’s right; I know she is, but sometimes it takes me some time to perform it.

you take your hand and wave it, you have no power over me.  and it is so.

I was able to do this a year or so ago over femme de la creme (she slept with my husband, emailing him secretly, and told xanga that *I* was stalking her). 

I’ve now done it over him.

I don’t know which YOU see first,
angels or bats,
but once you’ve seen them both
you can never go back.