September 11, 2006
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I saw the earth move
I watched the moon come up over the hill tonight. or really, I guess I saw the earth move to expose a view of the moon. either way– really pretty.
I have these anxiety dreams, where I’m taking a test, where I’m a waitress and I’ve got a full section and don’t know what I’m doing, and just lately where I’m working at the high stress salon where I turned down a job straight out of school. normally in the dream I anxiously struggle through feeling aweful. this week though something changed. I thought “I’m not in college anymore; this isn’t my class” and walked out… “these aren’t my tables, not my problem” and walked out… “I don’t work here and I’m not taking this appointment” and walked out. in the last scenario I walked out and saw all these people riding camels. all of a sudden I was riding a camel through a series of western bars. in one of the bars there was music and a dance floor and the deejay was saying “ask a lady to dance!” and I looked around to see that I was the only female and thought, “yeah, I don’t want to dance.” then the camel turned its head to look at me with its big brown eyes and licked my foot. I thought, “I really like this camel. I’m gonna stay on this nice camel.”
not even my anxiety can get at me now.
Metaphors R Us–
I was driving over the pass this afternoon. When no one is too close in front of me, or I have the latitude to pass I really like to keep my cruise control on. a few years ago I got a speeding ticket and I really don’t want another one so I have a speed I stick to, exactly as fast as I think I can get away with. what tends to happen is that I’ll come up on a slow car, pass them, then they’ll pass me back and end up going slow till I have to pass them again. then they tailgate me. I always wonder what the hell is wrong with them… cos here’s the thing: I’m going the same speed the whole damned time. this time I passed the guy right at the point where there was no more passing for several miles. I could see him inching up on my bumper and thought “I don’t need this shit” and flipped up my mirror so I didn’t have to watch.don’t you know I don’t look back?
Comments (4)
Can you tell me how you managed to insert rational thought into your dreams? Cause really, that would save me a lot of waking up in a cold sweat nights.
I’m with you on the asshole drivers. Some people just don’t like to be behind other people, and I don’t know why. I’m not trying to be sexist either, but it’s usually men, and they usually get shitty when a woman passes them. Points to you if you can figure out why *shrug*
~ S
I think you’ve developed a protective force field…yet another one of those Jedi mind tricks. And that’s why I love cruise control…it just proves my theory that everyone else on the road is an asshole
“Don’t you know I don’t look back?” would make a great bumpersticker. Or tattoo.
(Not hot, just young. And possibly like I just stepped out of 1987.)
i need a camel.
ryc: I was [on hot or not] when I was 16, by the time I was 17 I was dating a 22 year old.