February 10, 2007
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lonely in your nightmare
I got my new “toy” in the mail today… fedex. you gotta love fedex and morning delivery. I had just gotten out of the shower and picked it up off the porch in my bathrobe. good good stuff, for real. I was late for work.
it’s good, really… but now it’s evening and if anything I’m more bone-crushingly lonely than ever. I’m thinking that wasn’t the point when I sent for it. I thought it would help. instead, perhaps it just makes me feel like I’ve given up. sometimes I have; sometimes I haven’t. all’s I know is I just feel SO FUCKING LONELY. my skin is hungry.
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Mucho love to you.
Maybe it’s my old age or my spinsterhood, but too much information, dude!
However, I will say that I opened my door greated by a doll of Castro. You have that rabbit thing and I have castro.
In all seriousness, I am sorry that you feel so lonely. Don’t, though, okay? You’ve got friends, like me!
So its a special toy that makes you late when you’re on the porch in your bathrobe just after getting out of the shower? Huh. I really don’t know what that could be referring…. oh. OH! :
: Gosh… gee, I um.
Well ‘member that I love you Lara girl. But I’m not wearing a bathrobe….. erm, well you know.
aw what a cute little purple bunny rabbit – what does he do?
lonely is the fucking worst, ‘tori.
the only solace you can take is that there are people all over with someone else’s arms around them that feel just as empty and alone as you.
I hope you succeed in filling your void. um, that was not code for fucking, either.
Happens to the best of us…
Enjoy…just don’t let it keep you indoors too much.
Knowing what you mean, but for different reasons…
I like what macgillicuddy said… believe it or not, it is worse to be lonely with someone right next to you. You can’t even delude yourself with imagining that it would be better if someone were next to you.
Congrats on the new purchase. Make sure you don’t get addicted, like Charlotte did on Sex and the City.
that’s one of the really bad things. spending all the years I did curled up into my own brain, I still feel the echo of it. that loneliness. I wish you some joy, soon, yo. and some (as macgillicuddy said) void filling.
Agreed… Macquillcuddy said it well. I felt most alone in a crowded rooms or just with the wrong person. Here’s wishing you rooms filled with all the right spirits.
i don’t have a rabbit, but i have other toys with animals.
I see this and remember what ‘Sex & the City’ said about it: “Oh honey if you are going to get something named after an animal, make sure it’s a HORSE.”
i’m on my way, love!
Mac said it best. Trust me.
-M
Ya know . . .
I know this feeling.
(when I had a partner & now that he’s gone)
Hang in there.
Yeah. I know what you mean. I wish I didn’t.
Is that thing scratching it’s head before it goes in?