January 25, 2004
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I miss myself.
I hate being in crisis mode. don’t misunderstand, I operate extremely well in crisis mode, but it doesn’t feel real.
so anyway, here’s where I stayed last sunday night:
that’s what available credit is for, right?
it was a heartbreaking moment in my life…first time back in town to deliver the kids to the ex…last time to be inside the house I thought I’d live in indefinitely. so, you know, I didn’t exactly want to spend the evening alone staring at a concrete block wall at the travellodge.
it made all the difference…
that was exactly my room. I took two jacuzzi baths with salts, the patio door open, a breeze blowing, and the gas fire blazing. it was lovely.
I had a four star dinner in the dining room, read my book, flirted with the waiters.
you know what, I’m not a wastrel, but I like to do nice things. I like to walk along the water, that’s free. I like to walk in the woods…that’s free. still, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with liking to do things that cost either.
it was a welcome respite. I felt like a big girl again.
Comments (31)
That place is gorgeous. Girls just have to do that kinda thing…you’re stronger than you think you are, honey. Hang on tight.
Good for you. I mean it–it looks restorative, even in pictures.
Yes! No point whatsoever in booking into some no-tell motel, where you’d have to spend the night listening to the people next door fight or fuck (cos ain’t it always the way with those places?).
Well done!
well I can think of a lot of reasons to check into a no-tel motel, but never mind that.
how the hell did your husband get the house?
BTW: you had a jazzuzi in your room…why didn’t you invite me…I have the whip cream all ready to go
ITs beautiful. You deserve to treat yourself.
the house was too expensive for me to keep. we had to sell it. it closes tuesday.
great idea, I need to get myself to a place like that, without screaming hyena babies.
for you.
Then it was worth it.
everybody needs a little bit of pampering every now and then!! Yay for you!!
Damn but that looks beautiful.. let’s hear it for pampering
I’m so glad you did something for yourself. Keep it up, love.
Niiiice
. It is a great thing when you can not only enjoy that type of environment, but also the knowledge that you don’t have to clean up after yourself. Love that feeling.
and you didn’t take me. what has become of us!
at least you had a good relaxment. you deserve it, doll.
Beautiful! I firmly believe in pampering oneself from time to time
screw those other hussies, what about ME?
i’d even scrub your back in the jacuzzi
glad you had fun regardless
last time i went on vacation a tanker spilled oil all over the beach…
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/south_asia/3150313.stm
Those lucky lucky waiters! Good for you hon. I couldn’t have come up with a better thought even if I was a smart monkey.
Very nice, and glad it made the difference, that’s what counts the most.
good for you!!!
I had to learn that suffering wasn’t always the answer. OF COURSE the band kept playing, I mean really.
I am very glad for you. There are so many times I wish I could bring myself to just have a little ‘treat’ and not feel godawful fucking guilty over it. Yay for seeing that it can be done!
it’s gorgeous. and you deserved that moment.
Darling, you had every right to stay there. I absolutely adore you for taking this decision, in the midst of all that chaos. What an excellent idea.
oh I know that was heartbreaking for you. Once a house becomes “home” its so very hard to leave and start all over. Are you working towards making your new place “home” yet? If not maybe this would be a good way to start healing.
Nothing wrong with it at all. NOTHING. Good Choice. BTW – email me your new deets, K?
Good for you. Sometimes we have to do these things, find time for ourselves to learn who we really are. Isn’t what life is all about?
There’s nothing wrong with luxury. There’s a whole group of people who know nothing but…
It’s good for the soul for us regular folks to experience it from time to time.
-M
glad you did it. hope you can do it more. without the bad feelings attatched.
well done. look after yourself.
you deserve all things expensive & nice.
wow
You’re worth it, enjoy it